table for one

i didn't know what i was fighting for

it may not be even worth dying for

it did took my breath away

and i felt self suffocating

the pain weigh out all the pride

and i started to look for a place to hide

someone really broke my heart inside

i'm in ruins

i'm laying down my arms

i'm giving up the fight

i'll throw my arms into the sky

i am at the end of the road

and i'm completely out of control

all my thoughts have taken their toll

and my mind breaks the spirit of my soul

my faith walks on broken glass

and my hangover doesn't pass

nothing really is built to last

i'm in ruins.

i tried to live on my own

when i burned down my house and home

i stood too close to the fire

like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

i know it's time to live and let die

and there is no another try

something inside my heart has died

i'm in ruins.

and there's no one to blame but me.

pagpapaalam

medyo matagal na kitang kasama.. tatlong taon na nga ata, kung tama an aking pagkakaalala. sa tuwing uuwi ako, ikaw ang una kong hinahanap. komportable kasi ako sayo. sa tuwing kasama kita, alam kong wala akong dapat isipin, walag dapat ipag-alala.

nakakalungkot na habang tumatagal, hindi ko napapansin ang importansiya mo sa buhay ko. habang tumatagal, nasasanay na ako na lagi kang nariyan. habang tumatagal, nagkakaroon ka na rin ng kapalit sa buhay ko.

pero, isang araw, nakita nalang kitang nakakalat sa bahay namin -- nasa isang sulok at marungis. puro kagat at parang di na mapapakinabangan. hindi ka na magandang tignan. hindi na kita magamit ng maayos. pilitin ko man, ay ramdam ko pa rin na iba na ang pakiramdam ko sa piling mo.

ito na ata ang tamang panahon para ikaw ay magpahinga at ako ay magpaalam. maraming salamat sa tatlong taong pakikiramay. salamat sa tatlong taong pagsasama.

salamat aking tsinelas.

at this very moment, a heart is rejoicing while another breaks.

at this very moment, a mouth is smiling, while another eyes' tears.

we can't always have the best.

sometimes, we only need to hope for the best.

at this very moment, you took my smile away.

at this very moment you broke my heart.

it was my first! :)

july 18th marked my very first fun run :) though me and my friends just did the 3k, what the heck? it's a fun run anyway? why take the extra effort when you can just have fun? haha!

it was the One family, one La Salle run at The Fort -- it started around 6am.. but we had to be at the venue by 430.. so much for a good night rest.. (saturday was another story). Spending 300Php for registration and 400Php for the skirt wasn't so bad.. cheers to good health, i guess?

..hmmnn

it boiled down to a bumming out sunday.. we watched the blind side, the hangover and cloudy with a chance of meatballs over bottled water, mr. chips, spaghetti and pizza..